Alas, God has provided

My journey this year has begun quite well.

I attended Life Changers International Church for Christmas this year. I was nervous because i didnt know what to expect or how it would be. I went by myself. I needed to do this, to feel the spiritual world for myself.
My whole world has changed. I dont know what happened on Christmas Day  in that Church, but I feel complete again. My heart is filled, my negative thoughts have seized, my life is turning around for the better.
I cant explain exactly what happened... all i know is that I cried and cried that service. I gave up finally once and for all- No more making my own plans in this life.
Trust. I gave all of my trust to God.

Overall, Pastor Dickow and that entire congregation saved my life on Christmas Day 2010. I was going downward, spiral into a vicious hole of nothing, confused, felt worthless, depression, suffered from some kind of addiction, and gulping alcohol was a large part of my life.

Now, I cling to the word of God. I feel loved, taken care of, provided for, whole again. I feel his presence in everything I do. I read the word of God for probably 1-2 hours a day. I have learned that no man, or woman or loved being comes before God. Loving God always comes first then the boyfriends. I cant remember how I was before. How things actually worked out and I didnt get more in trouble or worse health problems.
didnt want a relationship with anyone or anything.

More recently, Something horrible took over my body and soul for awhile...pleurisy AND pneumonia.
I knew that this was a test of faith. I knew it over and over again. Everyday, even the days when i could barely breath- I read his word. Facebook'd Pastor Dickow to send some good energy into the universe for me, send some prayers and share with the congregation how sick I really was. Til' a good week ago- I was still sick. Couldnt catch my breath walking up or down a flight of stairs. His word once again proven. He provided time for me to read. God helped me get through that illness. I stayed home, read and read the Bible. It put ease to my anxiety, my aches and pains, and most important my heart.

Pastor Dickow, I personally want to say thank you and the congregation for sending all of your love, your thoughts and prayers. I dont know how I would be with out you or them. God Bless each and every one of you. I cannot wait until our next meeting with you and God this Wednesday (VIA webcast) and this Sunday in person.
Pastor Dickow you are a very amazing person. I look up to you as a leader, a humorist, an angel, and humanitarian. Everything that I have ever seeked out for in life.
Thank you for saving me and thank you for praying for God to enter my heart and fill me up with his love this past Christmas.
I am whole once again and truly RE BORN!