I know there is a GOD, I know hes there, watching over me.
But I want to be closer. I want to talk to him like I talk to my best friend. but i cant. I don't know why.
I want to be like other those other people out there that are 'high' on life because of God. I want to become a Sunday worshiper. i don't know if I am scared or what is holding me back. I get emotional when i think of God. I know that I have slipped  through some scary things in life- and if it wasn't for him I would probably be dead somewhere. I want to be that woman that puts God before the husband, boyfriend in my life. I have never been able to do that. I want to fill this void in my heart and yet i don't know how. Its right in front of me and yet i don't know how.
Is there a certain religion that would make me closer with him? Is there something i can do to become a fan?

Once again stuck in this limbo, fickle on the fence, monkey in the middle, don't know what to do kind of thing going on.
hopefully I'll go to the 'right' side one of these days.